My hubby and I recently went to a mediumship development class this last weekend. The teacher had us do many activities and meditations to slowly build our connection to the other side. But one of the meditations that stood out the most kinda caught me off guard. It was the meditation to help us connect to the love vibration.
It caught me off guard because it made me feel sadness…
She had us close our eyes and relax as we thought of someone or a pet whom we loved deeply. I immediately thought of my deceased dog, Peanut. I pictured her little face, the softness of her hair, how she would spin in circles to say hello, and then of course, I remembered the day she departed.
I was expecting to feel blissful and happy with this exercise. And instead, I came out of the meditation with tears.
We paired up for another exercise soon after and had to choose cards to receive messages. I picked a card and turned it over… it said “Pets” and it had a painting of a unicorn kissing a dog. Again, tears… “Uh oh,” I thought. “This is going to be a day of crying!”
I contemplated the feeling I had about Peanut. How much my heart ached and whether this really meant I was entering the vibration of love. It was challenging my logical brain… as I THOUGHT the love vibration was high and made you feel good. Shouldn’t my heart feel happy and bright?
The teacher had us continually work on developing our connection to the love vibration as she stated this was key in being able to connect to spirit.
I realized the very first exercise we did, thinking of someone you love, unlocked something in me. It deepened my awareness of love, broadened my perspective of it, helped me embrace the forgotten pieces and tune in to the necessary parts. It blew me wide open.
I started to realize that this was less about feeling blissful and more about being present with all these pieces, even the ones that hurt, and facing them head on. I started to see the bigger picture, how this little dog has brought soooooo much love into my life and continues to do so. I am learning how I can be GRATEFUL for her, for showing me a path to love I never thought possible. And yes, a dog did that! A whole other lesson there in love, that something so small could have such a BIG impact.
As I write this, tears stream down my face because I can feel her still, her fast energy, her sparkle and pure joy. She radiates from a place that I can’t tangibly feel, but I just know is there. She is my bridge to the other side, the one who transcends time and space to connect to me in my darkest moments and my happiest celebrations. Her energy is eternal and expansive. I recognize when she is with me because I can feel the space between us. And yes, it hurts, but I understand it now. This is not suffering. This is how we exist together through different dimensions with different ways of being.
She is teaching me to connect. She is teaching me to expand. She is teaching me to not judge the feelings that arise in my heart, to not claim those feelings as painful, but rather as beautiful. She is teaching me to be present with every emotion that emerges and to read them with compassion. Wow, baby girl… thank you for being my teacher!
Much love to you as you connect,
Mandy Gatlin
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